again

This isn't the first time that there is something wrong between us, but this is the first time that I feel he is doing a conscious effort to let me go. As usual, I don't understand what really is going on inside his head, simply because he never tells me. I don't know if he really is letting me go or if he is just taking some time to think things over. I tried to reach out, but of course it has been all useless since without his cooperation. I've been praying to God and to my father to help me understand, even just on my own. I think this is for the better and I am so certain that all I need is time. Time to heal and time to fully realize that what we had isn't really as beautiful as I think it is.